Beloved Merman

Clasping your hand, I remember gently kissing the years that ran through your fingers as I watched the sand drip from the crevices and stick to the toes that resemble our children.i remember the nights we would lie here by the water counting the grains of salt that would wash away the I love you waving to us with bliss.i remember thirty years of passion.thirty years of your laughter tickling my earlobes, whispering your enigma clasping your hand.i remember the way we used to dream of sitting on the rainbow,pushing one another in puddles of rain sliding down startling poles of thunder

but

i don’t remember catching you...on your way down.i don’t remember allowing rebellious sand to capture your whispering laughter detained in my ear.i don’t remember going back to that ocean that once took you away,who invited you to dinner,replenished you with water,strangled you with large ropes of salt leaving me your wedding ring washed upon the shore that i don't remember ever going back to.